Sent the story
Lepattajat to Elina and it'll be in her hands by Thursday, if everything turns out well. School also starts on Thursday and goddamn I'm not interested for the slightest bit - only about the History course, for it's about the Cold War and its conflicts. Eija got me a book about the war in Vietnam for Christmas present and I think I'll have to bring it to class some day. The book is also in English, which is great, I'll broaden (it's not a word, is it?) my vocabulary greatly with it. I really need to know a lot more about the Cold War if I'm going to take the marticulation examination of History in March. I know a lot about the history of Finland (after middle 1850's, that is), the World Wars - will have to buy a documentary about the Western Front; I'm very interested about the battle in Passchendaele, Flanders Fields, Somme, Ypres etc etc (yes I got interested because of Blackadder), and the documentary box costs only 14,95€ which is less than most single DVD films cost - but about Cold War, not that much. I am not so well aware of the issue of Berlin and Berlin Wall, the wars in Korea and Vietnam. I'm not even sure what Che Guevara did.
I also have to do some background work regarding to my new story that takes place in 1950's France. I'll have to do some research on French culture in general, and refresh my memory on my little knowledge of French language that I have. Why in 1950's France? Why not in 2000's Finland of which I happen to know a lot more? Well, simply because I created the other main character around a French name, Dauphin. No, he's French. And 1950's simply seems like an interesting decade. The main characters are (of course) homosexuals, so I will have to deal with that issue too, in that atmosphere. The character of Dauphin is already very clear in my head, he just needs a conflict, some contradictions in his nature that makes him interesting. And I know already what he looks like - he looks like Sylvester Groth in my mind. No, this isn't "stupid fangirlism" though he has acted a character called Dauphin and he is a gorgeous man, but he just looks very inspiring to me and Dauphin Frédéric Rufus will be nothing like Dauphin in the film
The Third Wave.


At least I find him very gorgeous. Of course, my Dauphin will be French and younger than this Dauphin. But he looks like Groth in my mind, and I can't get rid of it. It isn't that bad, anyway, is it; I will not go describing him like "he looked like Sylvester Groth from
Inglourious Basterds 8D", but with some features that are most characteristic to Groth's outlook; well-shaped lips, blue eyes, grayish-brown hair. And no, the other character will be nothing like me, so I sign myself out of creating Mary Sues and Gary Stus. Why do I always have this urge to explain myself even though I really don't have to?
Anyway. I think, if I get enough inspiration and a good beginning sequence, this might turn out to be a good short story - or even a novel! Who knows. I haven't tried to write a novel yet, I have been focusing on poetry, shortest of short stories (all of them mostly horror), fanfiction and stuffs, but writing a novel about love and affection and getting rejected by the whole society seems like an interesting idea to have a try on. I should buy a new writing pad and begin writing - I have drabbled some of the beginning of the story on OpenOffice but I enjoy writing a lot more when I am writing by hand. I don't know why. I enjoy the feeling when pencil flows on paper and the rustling of paper is very soothing. Whenever I feel stressed or sad or angry, I just begin writing by hand and just the sound of it calms me down immediately. And even though the people who can actually read my handwriting are very rare a species, I happen to like my own handwriting.
My sleeping rhythm sucks. I went to sleep 8 A.M. and woke up 6 P.M. Ten hours of sleep, sheesh...